meeting acupuncture lady

for a few weeks now i have been really thinking hard about acupuncture and traditional chinese medicine. i have been doing research, and looking at doctors in the area.

i ended up deciding on the practice i chose because of a referral from our second RE, Dr. Mumbles. i chose a practice of 4 traditional chinese medicine doctors. 95% of their business is fertility patients. as i looked at the website i decided this was without a doubt the route i wanted to try. (it also didn't hurt that i had a voucher for complimentary consultation :D)

so i spoke to DH. he said ok, we could check it out. (i think non-traditional doctors visits are not really his thing) i had to wait a couple weeks to make an appt. as DH has been traveling a lot with work. which was good, i think. i gave me time to consider everything.

so off we went.

i was expecting most of what we got..... it did get a little intense. DH was not expecting what we got. (he was very overwhelmed)

acupuncture lady is very real. there is no sugar coating things around her, and immediately i liked this about her. she asked some hard questions while she was getting to know us. she learned a lot. i think we learned a lot too.

she asked how i feel about our RE..... as soon as she asked the question, i realized, this lady has the inside track on all the RE'S and OBGYN's in the area. i liked how she listened, and i liked how she spoke about the doctors i have been to. she was surprised to hear about an awful experience i had with one of the nurses at Dr. D's office, and asked me to call Dr. D to clear things up so that when we do go back for the FET, our experience is nothing but peaceful and happy. i liked that she insisted on making the phone call, although i haven't gotten up the guts to call yet.

she also insisted that i make a call to my hypnotherapist. to clear the air with her. as i feel that she has broken my trust. a phone call i will be making tomorrow.

she wanted to know about our diagnosis. RE #1 said "cervical stenosis", RE #2 said "unexplained"...... as we talked, it made me think we had been going about things all wrong. we never really talked about a diagnosis..... we just pushed forward..... trying to use up the insurance benefits as we would not have them for long. i mean, that's not the way you make a baby. it's bad enough we aren't making a baby the traditional way, worse, we made it about money. no wonder it didn't happen!!

acupuncture lady kept saying we are "calling forth life" she asked when the last time i was around a newborn was. she asked because there is something so peaceful and angelic about a newborn, and this is a life that we are trying to create. she asked if i thought a new life would want to be brought into a place where there are hard feelings and resentment. she asked how i feel about pregnant women, and i told her the truth. i told her that i avoid situations with pregnant women, because i feel "bleck" around them. again, hard feelings and resentment.

it made so much sense! i think by just saying that to me, she changed my perspective. i have even had conversations with a few preggo ladies since then.

after we spoke for a while acupuncture lady explained the process. the first four sessions are diagnostic. she explained they will be looking at my tongue, feeling my pulses, looking over my history and also doing some acupuncture. after the four sessions we will have a re-evaluation, and discuss the suggested treatment.

i have done two sessions so far. one after our consultation, and one on saturday morning. the first time was strange. the needles didn't hurt, it was just weird. i also had a really hard time relaxing. after she put the needles in, i was to lay in the room for 25 minutes to relax. as soon as she left the room it sounded as it they were moving furniture around the office, very distracting. the second treatment was much easier. it was done by one of the other doctors in the practice. a very pregnant eastern european woman (i don't remember her name). she was so calm and peaceful, i couldn't help but love everything about her. as she left the room it seemed like she was a bit concerned about my ability to relax. ( little does she know i can generally sleep on command.) i listened to the music and dreamt of our child. i thought about my ovaries and the follicles releasing an egg, and fertilization. i got a little emotional as i visualized our child being created within my body..... it felt so amazing!! as the music continued i continued to relax..... i think i might have fallen asleep. as the doctor walked into the room she said "Great Job!!" she was impressed with my ability to relax! :D

it has been so much to process.... i have sat down to write this post more times than i would like to say, but i just wasn't getting the right things out. my head has been spinning!! acupuncture lady has given me so much to think about, and also a truly new perspective.

i am looking forward to my treatment tomorrow, and so excited for the re-evaluation on thursday.