Sunday, October 24, 2010

Why did I do that??!!

please someone tell me....
why oh why oh why...

yesterday when i called bff for our usual morning chat she asked us to go to the pumpkin patch with them. i thought ok, that might be fun. told her i would call her after i ran my errands.
i thought about it and decided i didn't think it was for me.

but then after my errands i stopped at bff's house to see her for a few minutes and to hang out with her son before they went to the pumpkin patch.... (it's the best part about them living down the street... i get to see their little man whenever i want. i am obsessed with him :D, his name is Bubba, he is 1.) so i was hanging out with Bubba, who was for some reason extra cute yesterday, and then the peer pressure kicked in. i decided to go, and luckily DH said he would go too :D

as soon as i got out of the car i thought, uh oh, not a great idea. it was like an infertile's nightmare. happy family's everywhere, little areas set up everywhere for photo op's, babies everywhere. it's like the quintessential fall family photo.

i was ok for a little bit. i took Bubba into the pumpkin patch and i took photos. it was good. but after that i was done. it was too much. we had to leave. i was happy we had taken our own car, but we were there with 2 other couples, i felt like such a douche, but i just had to go. i told BFF i was leaving, and we were out.

DH was beside himself. he was frustrated with me, and we argued in the car on the way home. i didn't even care about the arguing. as soon as we were out of there the tightness in my chest was gone. i was better.
note to self: no more pumpkin patches until we have a baby.


  1. I was just thinking the other day, is it some breeders requisite to take their kids to a pumpkin patch and post their pictures from the fabulous day on Facebook? Don't know how you did it, I would have the same major anxiety too, yuck!

  2. omg, i can't imagine. good for you for going, but i totally understand why you had to leave.

  3. OMG, I am sorry to hear about that experience. I would have felt the exact same - good for you for leaving. It just gets to be too much - I totally get it.

    On a separate note, I hope you left with a pumpkin in hand so that you can carve and make pumpkin seeds! :)

  4. I'm sorry that you had such a hard time at the pumpkin patch...I am sure it was pretty brutal. Hang in there!

  5. That was very brave to even try going. I wouldn't even have considered it , but then I can't hang out around even my friends' babies right now. Be kind to yourself and thanks for stopping by my blog.

  6. So sorry for the rough time. Hoping next year you have your own little pumpkin to take to the pumpkin patch.

  7. I think you should totally go back on a double date with your man for fun and only do adult things that folks with kids cant get away with.

  8. I give you an A for trying! I am sure your friends understood why you had to leave.

  9. I really feel for you and give you total props for giving it a go. I had a similar experience a few months back when I agreed to go on a trip to a farm with my friend's moms group. Unfortunately, we drove together so there was no backing out. I totally get it. It's not easy.

    Happy ICLW!

  10. Sometimes I try to say to myself "I'm being silly, of course I should be able to go to these things without getting upset." But, then, once I'm there, it all comes down on me. Sorry it was so stressful!

  11. My husband and I had a similar experience at the zoo last weekend. Nothing but families and pregnant women everywhere!

    Sometimes you do have to just avoid places where you know there will be lots of families with little kids if you're just not feeling up to dealing with that.

    I'm sorry. :-(

  12. Sorry that was so hard! You should be proud for at least attempting to go. Hopefully next October you can go and have your photo op with your little one! I just added your link! ICLW (#72 & 106)