i just haven't met you yet

as i drove to work this morning, listening to the radio, i heard this song.
i have probably heard this song a million times, because there are only so many songs you can hear on your local top 40 radio station. i usually even sing along to the chorus when i hear it. but today, i actually heard this song. not on purpose, i guess the lyrics just sunk into my head today....
and by the time the song was half way over, i was hysterical.
not laughing hysterical.
(i cried so much i had to put on more make up when i got to work.)
but it made me think, this song. thank you michael blube.
its kind of a cheery song, and it made me cry in kind of a happy way.

when i first began to worry that there was something wrong. when i knew we would need a doctors intervention in order to get pregnant i was obviously sad. i was seeing my hypnotherapist at the time, who suggested i/we find a way to deal with my sadness. and i came up with a little mantra. something to get me by. i still say it sometimes, and it sometimes helps.
i think to myself, "we haven't been blessed with a child yet, because God has not found the right one for us."
(i am not really a religious person, but i do believe that God does give us blessings.)

well this song made me think about me little mantra, and made me feel good today. because it will happen. we will have a baby. and it will be amazing.

i just haven't met you yet.

so here it is. the actual song, and the lyrics are below. maybe it will give someone else a little hope today.



I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet

day 10 me.... over 10 years ago

this was me in high school......
sadly, this was more than 10 years ago :(

day 9 aphoto that i took

well bloggers, i love to take photos......
and there are so many to choose from.

this photo was taken at the beach, in november 2008.
my brother and i just ended up there one day, and i took this shot
which makes me love living in south florida

day 8...... aphoto that makes me sad

taken on the same day as the last photo...... my gram
the last time she traveled was to my wedding. i was so happy she was there, but so sad that it took so much out of her to be there.
love you gram.
we miss you.

day 7... a photo that makes me happy

20 of my favorites

In no particular order:

1. my DH- Joe G!! i love you babe
2. stewie - our dog
3. taking pictures
4. cooking
5. bubba cheeks (my nephew)
6. dunkin donuts iced coffee
7. my iphone (small addiction)
8. scratch off lotto tickets
9. my bed
10. as mentioned before, any smut television (reality tv, daytime tv)
11. the pool in my backyard
12. my family
13. sleeping in
14. days without work :D
15. my toyota corolla
16. hydrangeas
17. farmers markets
18. shopping
19. going out for breakfast
20. the florida keys

late

today is cycle day 26...... my period was due today.

not a single sign of AF.

no sore breasts, no chocolate cravings (well i always want chocolate, but no intense cravings), no headache, no bitchiness, NADA.

when i spoke to the ivf nurse today she asked if we tried this month to get pregnant. I said emphatically "No"
but when i got off the phone i thought about it. we weren't trying. but we weren't not trying. i wasn't paying attention at all.

if i don't get AF by friday, maybe i might POAS. or maybe i will go in for a beta. i hate to POAS, it makes me crazy.