Canceled

Yeah ...... Canceled. It sucks.
I'm sad.

I don't remember exactly, but it went something like this.

One side had a 22 plus smaller follies.... 12, 9, 14 etc.....
The other side had a 25 plus a couple smaller 9, 11, 12 etc.....

I knew it was going to be cancelled when I saw those giant follies on both sides.
Dr. Mumbles was mumbling away during the wanding. Afterwards we chatted about possible retrieval and possible cancel.

Basically, he just didn't think there would be enough for a successful retrieval. I understand. It is just very frustrating to have put my body through this for nothing.
I was really sad.
They suggested Provera for 7 days starting tomorrow, and then BCP for 12 days and then back to stimming on Antagonist protocol by the end of October, for early November retrieval and freeze.

DH and I spoke about it.
We are officially taking a break. I am done for a while. I was looking forward to the break after this cycle more than anything else.
I just don't have anymore fight in me right now. 21 months of TTC. Enough for a while.

My body, mind and soul need a break.

We are going to take a few months.

I am going to take care of myself. Diet, exercise, yoga, maybe a couple small trips away with my Hubs, and some money saving during the busy season at work.

I am definitely sad, but at the same time, I am kind of happy to not think about it for a while.