for some reason, with every cycle we have had, the day that i set up delivery for our meds is the day that it feels real. so today it feels real.....ivf #3, here we come! may the 3rd time be a charm! (i am hoping and praying with everything in me that the third time is truly a charm).
the bcp's are making me crazy...... i HATE them the most out of all the meds..... for some reason i truly feel like the bcp are the absolute worst part.....luckily it's the first part and so much easier after they are done. my pack is over on friday....but i have to start on a new pack on saturday..... more craziness awaits! i kinda feel bad for the hubs because he feels the worst of the crazy time :) lucky for him, he is going away this weekend.... off to catch lobsters in the keys.... i hope he gets a lot!! i love love love florida lobsters!
our next ultrasound is scheduled for aug 16th..... then we will know what is going on with the giant cysts that opened up shop on my right ovary.....hopefully the bcp have sucked the life out of them and we can get this show on the road....if so, we will get our schedule that day, i hope. i believe dr. d wants me on bcp until the 23rd. perfect timing for AF to arrive for our little beach vacation the last weekend in august :)
3rd times a charm..... please!
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Monday, August 8, 2011
Saturday, May 14, 2011
48 hours to PUPO
i am getting very excited!
i am off work until thursday next week..... and so excited to relax and spend some time with our little embabies!
went to acupuncture this morning..... it was busy when i got there. only one acupuncture lady working, which was totally strange, and the receptionist was calling people and scheduling appointments like crazy. when i got called back for treatment acupuncture lady asked how i was. i told her feeling "ok". not great and not terrible. we talked about the progestrone reaking havoc she said she would make it better, and then told me that acupuncture lady #1 would not be able to do my treatment on monday before the transfer, she had a family emergency and was out of town, so i wouldn't get a treatment before the transfer.
she said they thought i would be fine and i shouldn't worry about it.
begin total fucking insanity.
she put all the needles in and left me to go crazy....(in her defense, i don't think she had any idea my head was going to spin right off my neck)
i tried to relax... i tried to think about the bright yellow light in my ute.... i tried to listen to the music... i tried.
i didn't cry until she came back. she asked how i was, and i just started sobbing. i told her i was stressed and upset. i told her i felt abandoned.... i sobbed. she tried to console me. she tried to tell me that it would be FINE. she tried. i just cried.
she left me alone for a minute, i thought it was because she was in the weeds. she came back and said she had rearranged her schedule and she would be there on monday to do my treatment...... then i cried more... i sobbed " i'm sorry!". i could tell she was truly upset that i was upset. i could tell she was fighting back tears.
it was terrible..... i had to lay there for what seemed like forever. so that i could get it together.
and then, as soon as i walked out of the room.... waterworks. fucking unbelievable. more tears... a hug, apologies for making me so upset, and i was out the door.
acupuncture lady told me to "HAVE FUN THIS WEEKEND!".
i got home and told DH about it..... he wanted to know what we were going to do to have fun. because he knew of my plans for the weekend...... cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, relaxing, a little pool time. he wanted fun. so we thought about it.....
and we made a plan.
today was spent shopping..... groceries and a new vacum! WOO HOO! so sad that i am so excited for a new vacum.
DH is awesome. after shopping, he cleaned while i went for a mani/pedi. love that man :D
and tomorrow......
MIAMI SEAQUARIUM!!!!
sooooo excited. DH used to go all the time when he was a kid. he grew up in miami.
i have been once. when i was a kid.
bestie, her hubs (whom i lovingly refer to as "jockstrap" don't remember why, but i love his nickname :D) and their son, ( my love, "bubba) are going with us. it should be lots of fun !!
i am off work until thursday next week..... and so excited to relax and spend some time with our little embabies!
went to acupuncture this morning..... it was busy when i got there. only one acupuncture lady working, which was totally strange, and the receptionist was calling people and scheduling appointments like crazy. when i got called back for treatment acupuncture lady asked how i was. i told her feeling "ok". not great and not terrible. we talked about the progestrone reaking havoc she said she would make it better, and then told me that acupuncture lady #1 would not be able to do my treatment on monday before the transfer, she had a family emergency and was out of town, so i wouldn't get a treatment before the transfer.
she said they thought i would be fine and i shouldn't worry about it.
begin total fucking insanity.
she put all the needles in and left me to go crazy....(in her defense, i don't think she had any idea my head was going to spin right off my neck)
i tried to relax... i tried to think about the bright yellow light in my ute.... i tried to listen to the music... i tried.
i didn't cry until she came back. she asked how i was, and i just started sobbing. i told her i was stressed and upset. i told her i felt abandoned.... i sobbed. she tried to console me. she tried to tell me that it would be FINE. she tried. i just cried.
she left me alone for a minute, i thought it was because she was in the weeds. she came back and said she had rearranged her schedule and she would be there on monday to do my treatment...... then i cried more... i sobbed " i'm sorry!". i could tell she was truly upset that i was upset. i could tell she was fighting back tears.
it was terrible..... i had to lay there for what seemed like forever. so that i could get it together.
and then, as soon as i walked out of the room.... waterworks. fucking unbelievable. more tears... a hug, apologies for making me so upset, and i was out the door.
acupuncture lady told me to "HAVE FUN THIS WEEKEND!".
i got home and told DH about it..... he wanted to know what we were going to do to have fun. because he knew of my plans for the weekend...... cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, relaxing, a little pool time. he wanted fun. so we thought about it.....
and we made a plan.
today was spent shopping..... groceries and a new vacum! WOO HOO! so sad that i am so excited for a new vacum.
DH is awesome. after shopping, he cleaned while i went for a mani/pedi. love that man :D
and tomorrow......
MIAMI SEAQUARIUM!!!!
sooooo excited. DH used to go all the time when he was a kid. he grew up in miami.
i have been once. when i was a kid.
bestie, her hubs (whom i lovingly refer to as "jockstrap" don't remember why, but i love his nickname :D) and their son, ( my love, "bubba) are going with us. it should be lots of fun !!
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